The Thoughts I Keep To Myself

Why do I have so many things I want to say but I don't?

While talking to a friend we decided some people we know are extremely blunt, and it works. A nurse she knows basically says to her patients, "If you want to get better, listen to me, if not, go home. I don't want to waste my time on you." Yet, she works hard and is nice to people who help her in her job, and are friendly with her. Sometimes I wish I could just be that way, yet I am not even close.

I was listening to someone talk the other day and they were saying some things that they believed to be true, yet I found to be extremely false, and for the sake of being polite I held my tongue because all I could think of to say was, in my mind, in a rude manner. I thought that I would offend her so I kept my mouth shut and let her finish telling me her story and go on with life. It occurred to me while she was talking, does it really matter? Is it some life or death comment I need to make? Or is it an opinion or, in a rare case, some "concrete detail" of which I had proof but the person would dismiss it as a "coincidence" or "a rare find?"

In church today, I felt like I was making a plethera of comments and I had the fortune of having one come to me, yet again. It was, in my mind's eye, what the teacher had said but as I sat there I realized that I had made a pretty close connection, making it seem the same. Yet, having felt sheepish making my last comment I held what I had to say and kept my thoughts to myself.

In all, I find my excuses for keeping my thoughts to myself so as not offend, become annoying, or because I can't see a purpose for it in the long run. Sometimes I do regret not saying something, or saying something and only wish I could find that happy medium where I do say what I think at the right moment, and keep other thoughts to myself, yet life is life and we're constantly learning when the right and wrong times are every day.