Contradiction

It is so easy to contradict what someone says but it is so much harder to agree, fully, and not feel some regret of annoyance that you didn't think of what they said first.

I often find that when someone says something that makes total sense, I find it easy to disagree because I am upset that I didn't think of it first. It's easy to find faults with what they are saying because they haven't worded it the way I would. So I make connotations out of the words and explain what they are "saying" in the new light and then argue with them. But of course I do fail in the end, because we come to the same conclusion and realize that I was just being dumb, or in other words, jealous (though out of kindness no one says I was jealous).

Yet, when I do agree with someone it is even harder! I have to put down my pride and admit they thought of whatever the comment was first, and that I had not. I wish I would have thought of the comment before anyone else in the entire world, but that is just not going to happen, as It was just said. My pride is hurt as I have my innate nature to be the best, and the top. This pride turns into jealousy.